My Sister Is Brilliant!

Kris: "So people ask me how you are doing, and I say, she doesn't talk much. Read her blog, it says a lot."

This is the most profound statement I have heard in a long time. So true! Thanks Kris. I wish everyone could get it that easily. Though maybe frustrating to others, I find it easier to write out my heart, rather than try and speak it. I'm just not one to talk much on certain things I guess. I know it's all out of great hearts that people want to know how I am doing; I really really appreciate that, TRULY. But I guess if this kind of thing really gets to you, you might need to talk to my Creator, He's the One who did it! HAHAHAHAH! Ya'll are just part of a huge prank between me and JC! Suckas!

Actually this past week has been very hmmm, how do I want to say it; humbling perhaps. This is all in a good way as well. I have been forced back into the Word and crying out prayers through a situation that was just brought across my path early last week. And I praise God for it. He has drawn me close to His heart, very close, and for a while there I didn't feel anywhere near Him. But I'm back and that my friends, is the bottom line. And that alone is reason to rejoice. I've learned once again what it means to be vulnerable to others and to completely have to trust in our Lord. I feel as though if I proclaim that I live, breathe, and talk Jesus, I better start walking Jesus. What does it mean to be real? As believers and the church I really feel as though we struggle with this. We put on our church face and our church attitude and our church front, and we freakin pretend everything is ok. I'm guilty folks. But I'm here to say that Jesus doesn't roll that way. He wants us to be real with one another, transparent, no matter how that may make us look. Our God is sovereign, gracious, and compassionate looking for people who will be real for His Kingdom. I was reminded of that this week. Reminded that if I speak to others about being real, than I better start being real as well. Father, forgive me of those times where I have put on a front to protect myself, rather than being vulnerable and trusting in you.

Alright, where I'm at. (And to you English teachers, not between the a and the t). Shut it. I have been in prayer about my future and will continue to be. I have prayer warriors crying out for me as well. I have no answer for you honestly. I still continue to think about the Quip numerous times throughout the day, every day. My prayers seem to go back to the Quip. Who knows. I am resting in the hands of the Lord, and that's all I can say right now. But the first part of the "song of the summer" definitely sums up my feelings towards the Quip. Yes I know corny but get over it. This song was played over and over again this summer, and I just started really hearing the first part of the song:

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Seems like I'm in a race, but already won first place
I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did

Again, I know crazy, but that spoke to me in a way. Ha. Now I know ya'll are thinking I'm insane! Some of you might be saying, what about Africa. As you all know, Africa is my heart and passion. At the same time, I feel at peace about Africa right now. When I think Quip, I think an urgent need. I think of God calling a specific people group to joining Him in advancing the Kingdom. I think of restoration. I think of our Father's hand resting upon a community in need of a Savior. I think of myself helping bridge that gap. However, I still don't know. I'm still facedown in prayer about it and trusting in Ps. 46:10 and Acts 17:26-27. Amen and Amen. Until next time, love deeply!