Ahh, deep breath. So, real right? I've been back for a little over a week now, and I don't know what to think. Literally. I either have about 5,000 things going through my head at a time or I just want to sit in front of the television and watch mindless shows. Those of you who know me, know that's not normal. So I'm struggling, but little by little the peace of our Lord is becoming more and more evident to me. I realize that a lot of my struggle deals with just wanting to serve our Savior, and that's not necessarily a bad thing - but I also have to learn to take time to let God restore me. I think I am a lot more worn down physically, socially, emotionally, and spiritually than I think I am. Even in saying that, I know I need the peace and grace of God to meet me where I am right now. And I believe He will.
I went to Berkmar today, being a little hesitant to tell you the truth. It was super hard leaving that school, I didn't want to leave the kids! I can't ever put into words the feeling of when God truly teaches you to love others. I think it was during my time at Berkmar where God truly showed me who He was and where I truly fell in love with His children and His people. Praise God for that. It was such a blessing to get smiles and hugs from everyone there today. I pray that God's hand will continue to rest on BMS!
And that's it for now. The end. Love deeply.
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